My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have perhaps six months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Words, True and Untrue

"Perhaps the most powerful moral argument for honesty has to do with what the French philosopher Jean-Paul Sartre called "bad faith."  Liars deceive others, but in a sense, liars also deceive themselves.  When we lie we tend to distort our own view of reality, and the more often we lie, the more habitual this distortion becomes.  Over time, the habit of lying divorces us further and further from reality, so we see less and less clearly the choices before us and what is at stake in them.  Eventually, we may find ourselves unable to see what we are really doing and how it is affecting others and ourselves.  We end up leading inauthentic and irresponsible lives." -- Richard Gunderman

I do think that reality begins to erode over time for the habitual liar.  In the short term, he may succeed in duping his colleagues, friends, partners.  But in the long term, studies show that frequent liars are more prone to a whole host of physical and mental health problems.  In a very real sense, the body and mind keep the score.  In order to "win" at life, we need to know what the truth is -- and attempt to honor it in every way possible.