My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.

Sunday, February 23, 2020

The Tyranny of Silence

"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing." -- Edmund Burke

I am being stalked by a former medical care provider, a man who suffers from mental illness in the form of Borderline Personality Disorder and psychosis induced by recreational drug use, in addition to HIV Associated Neurocognitive Disorder.  He hears voices commanding him to harm others.  He considers himself, by his own admission, to be a sexual predator, a victim of his own destructive impulses, the "Devil," and a meth addict.  His friends have described him to me as "confused," "troubled," "overwhelmed by spite," "highly dangerous," and "an abomination."

He has hacked my phone and computer and those of my family members.  He has hijacked my social media accounts, posting material in my name and through aliases, distributing photos from my photo roll in addition to including lewd photos of others, claiming they are me.  He has vandalized my car, broken into my house, solicited many associates, both men and women, to approach me in public on his behalf, either to express the sentiment that he would like to marry me or the conviction that he would like to kill me.

Because this man has connections within law enforcement, his threats to my life -- and to those of my family members -- have not been stopped as they should have been.

This is my public plea for good men and women to stand of the side of safety, intervention, the rule of law.

If any of you reading this have knowledge of past and/or ongoing threats to our safety and our privacy, I would ask you please to contact the authorities.

Please call the Anonymous Tip Hotline of the San Mateo County Sheriff's Office at 1 (800) 547-2700 or reach out to the Sheriff's Office online at  In addition, alert the federal authorities at the San Francisco FBI (415) 553-7400 or  Specific threats should simultaneously be conveyed to me at