My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Wednesday, December 27, 2023

Important Emails for OIG Hotline

OIG Hotline, please be aware of a long series of refunded contributions manifested by ActBlue this morning without my foreknowledge or consent.  

I remain concerned that my contribution to the BVF this morning may not have been received or logged properly.

Please see emails sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, with the following subject headings and time stamps on December 27, 2023: 

  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: How do you like your coffee?; sent at 9:09 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:07 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:06 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:06 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:05 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:05 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:04 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:04 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:03 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: ActBlue Refund; sent at 9:03 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:02 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:02 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: (ActBlue) Confirmation of refund; sent at 9:01 AM
I find the timing of these refunds to be highly unusual, and would ask that you apprise any other Offices which may need this information concerning these recent events, alongside the receipt confirming my contribution to BVF this morning.

Thank you very kindly for your support,






Lane MacWilliams

Winter's Worthy Child

One of my husband's most cherished memories of his mother centers on the time she decided, even in the midst of economic hardship, that her fourth child out of five needed a new winter coat.

As fourth in the lineup, my husband almost never had new clothes.  He inherited the hand-me-downs of his brother, who was six years older.

But, as a seven-year-old boy, he had begun to assist his brother on his paper route, a task which, in Buffalo, New York, meant pulling a sled stacked with newspapers across miles of snow-covered dark before the school day.

The winter weather was fierce and unforgiving, and some of the boys regularly suffered frostbite.  

So, she took him once every week to a downtown department store, where, holding his hand, she wended their way to coat section.  There, she paid five dollars cash to a clerk, who recorded the payment by hand in the "layaway" book.

At the last payment, with winter in full and harrowing force, the coat -- which was a down-filled miracle of warmth and protection -- was donned by this true-hearted seven-year-old boy and worn all the way home and for three winters following.

But this story isn't about the coat, really.

It's about the courage of a seven-year-old boy pulling a sled through the dark before school every day -- and it's about the mother who loved him.

Despite -- or perhaps because of -- the financial hardship of the family, every single journey to the department store conveyed to my husband the following truth, necessary to every child:  you are worthy.

In my husband's adult life, he has communicated this message of respect and dignity to many others.

One of the many reasons I admire President Biden is the fact that he developed his character and integrity while growing up in a little while clapboard house -- not unlike the little white clapboard house my husband called home -- without economic privilege, without societal advantage, without the assurance of a college education or the job that might come afterwards.

Yet President Biden emerged from his beginnings knowing he was worthy.

Now, as President of the United States, he tells us, as members of the American public, that we are worthy, too.

We may not foresee all of the challenges our future will present, but we can be assured that our character will be equal to them.

I have faith that President Biden's integrity is greater than the weather, the frostbite, the broken sled, the adversity.

With a commitment to support one another, the storms are navigable, and we will travel through them with our bonds renewed.

Our democracy depends on the courage, the fortitude, and the generosity that forge those bonds.

President Biden possesses these gifts in abundance, and, as he chooses to remind us, so do we.




Lane MacWilliams


Tuesday, December 26, 2023

UPDATE: Planned Mail Retrieval on December 26, 2023

 UPDATE:  This secure retrieval of mail was successfully completed.




Lane MacWilliams

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OIG Hotline, my husband will retrieve our mail today, December 26, 2023.

He will use a body cam, as he did during his last retrieval of mail, to film the entire process of his handling each piece of mail that we accept.  The ownership of this camera and its micro SD card have already been conveyed to the OIG Hotline Investigations Division.

He will not retrieve or open the letters from Jim Mellano of AFE nor from SC Fund Recovery, but rather, will leave them in place.  To confirm, ownership of the Jim Mellano/AFE letter and the SC Fund Recovery letter have been transferred to the OIG Hotline Investigations Division and will be provided to them as soon as they request them.

My husband will affix a new security seal to the lock on the box when he has completed his retrieval of accepted mail.

For clarity, neither Ken nor I have opened the mailbox since Ken's last documented retrieval of acceptable mail.

We hope that the security measures we have taken -- that of the security seal, and the presence of lights and an alarm, will have been sufficient to prevent tampering with our mailbox in the interim.

Again, we hope that Jim Mellano has been honest in his characterization of the contents of the AFE letter as a simple, unaltered 1099 form.  

However, because Jim Mellano has lied in writing in the past, we are taking all precautions to ensure our family's security, as well as to preserve any material that could possibly assist OIG Hotline investigators in their inquiry into falsified law enforcement reporting for anti-democratic objectives.

Whether Jim Mellano's actions in sending a letter against my express directives were intended to alarm me -- and discredit me in that process -- or whether they were intended to further a plan of falsified law enforcement reporting against my family or myself -- it seems wise to me to exercise great caution and care in this circumstance.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.




Lane MacWilliams

Newly Notarized Affidavit for Your Office

OIG Hotline, please be apprised that there is a newly notarized affidavit for your Office sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com, and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the subject heading and date/time stamp as follows:

Newly Updated and Notarized Affidavit for Your Office ;sent at 3:02 PM Pacific time.

As you know, the OIG Hotline has my full permission to access my email accounts at any time your Office so desire.

With abiding appreciation,




Lane MacWilliams

New Affidavit for the OIG Hotline

OIG Hotline, please be apprised that there is a newly notarized affidavit sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, with copies sent to lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the following subject heading and date/time stamp:

  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Newly Updated and Notarized Affidavit for Your Office; sent on December 26, 2023 at 11:51 AM Pacific time
As you know, the OIG Hotline has my full permission to access my email accounts at any time your Office so desires.

Most sincerely,






Lane MacWilliams

Monday, December 25, 2023

Newly Updated Affidavit for the OIG Hotline -- to be notarized

OIG Hotline, please be apprised that there is a newly notarized affidavit sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, with copies sent to lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the following subject heading and date/time stamp:

  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Updated Affidavit of LM, yet to be notarized; sent on December 25, 2023 at 5:33 PM Pacific time
As you know, the OIG Hotline has my full permission to access my email accounts at any time your Office so desires.

I will be posting my Merry Christmas wishes to your Office shortly.

With deep appreciation for your advocacy,






Lane MacWilliams

Documentation of Wifi Access, December 25, 2023, December 26, 2023, December 27, 2023, and December 28, 2023

At approximately 8:00 AM, I signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to research delivery of a Christmas gift ordered through Amazon.

At 3:08 PM, following my family's Christmas celebration, I began to update my affidavit for notarization.  Radon gas levels have been climbing throughout the day, beginning at levels that were too low to measure and now measuring at a short term reading of 3.16 pCi/L.


Prepared newly updated affidavit for the OIG Hotline.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 7:36 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

10:07 PM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to attempt to access Proof.com for an onlin notarization procedure, but the application was hacked.

Signed off of Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air at 10:23 PM and signed on with MacBook Pro in order to assess whether I was also blocked from accessing Proof.com on my MacBook Pro.  Unfortunately, I was blocked on this second computer as well.

Returned to MacBook Air.

Attempted to access notaries OnlineNotary.net and Proof.com, only to be blocked through apparent hacking of my computers.  In asking for my husband's assistance, we encountered the same problems on both my computers and his, using both my account and his.

Will try again as soon as possible.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 11:11 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

December 26, 2023 At approximately 8:30 AM, I began printing my updated affidavit in preparation for a notarization of the document for the OIG Hotline.

Sent an email with a newly updated affidavit to the attention of the OIG Hotline.

I will be updating this blog with regard to our decision concerning the safest apparent notarization documentation in light of recent allegations of potential corruption of online notarization processes.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 10:10 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

11:13 AM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air.

Notarized newly updated affidavit for the OIG Hotline, emailed it to the attention of the OIG Hotline and documented its availability on my blog.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 11:56 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

12:28 Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with Mac Book Air in order to check blog and Amazon.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 12:42 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

2:56 PM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air.

Forwarded Ken's affidavit to the OIG Hotline within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com.

Donated to DSCC, DCCC, and EDW.

Documented a few thoughts within my email accounts.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 3:54 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

5:00 PM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to document environmental measures within my email lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com, and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com in an email sent at 5:08 PM.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 6:15 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

December 27, 2023 at 4:03 AM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to enter blog post and send one email.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 4:45 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

8:00 AM Signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to send email to 23 and Me requesting assistance in ensuring that my family's genetic information is not deleted.  This was in response to a recent email from 23 and Me appearing to invite deletion.

Because there is an allegation that a PAMF vaccine administered to my husband on December 8, 2023 may have been tampered with in such a way as to cause genetic damage, my husband's original genetic information may be important.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 8:15 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

At approximately 9:00 AM, I signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to forward emails to the OIG Hotline.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 10:00 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

At approximately 11:40 AM, I signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to donate to the WJC.

Made subsequent donations online as well.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 12:50 PM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

At approximately 5:00 PM, I signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air.

Contributed 3k, $100 and 4k to President Biden and Vice President Harris.

Checked Amazon.

Took a hiatus from computer work and signed off of Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air at approximately 9:20 PM.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams

On December 28, 2023, I signed onto Wifi GSQ3 with MacBook Air in order to document yesterday's contributions to President Biden's campaign.

Earlier, I checked YouTube for current threats and documented that process within an email sent to the attention of the OIG Hotline entitled ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: Documentation of Most Recent Alleged FBI Crimes of Knowingly Falsified Law Enforcement Reporting Against the MacWilliams Family, sent at 5:45 AM.

Checked Amazon.

This is to confirm that all of my words, actions, and communications, online and elsewhere, continue to be honorable and law-abiding in every way, shape, and form.

I will plan to disconnect from Wifi GSQ3 on MacBook Air by 5:58 AM.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.

Lane MacWilliams