My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Friday, December 29, 2023

Current Obstruction of Participation in DNC Town Hall Podcast; Additional Email for OIG Hotline

OIG Hotline, please see the following communication sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.om, lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the subject heading ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Fwd: Instructions for Weekly Town Hall Podcast - SAN FRANCISCO, sent at 12:15 PM, today, December 29, 2023.

My husband, who has his Ph.D. in Electrical Engineering, and uses Zoom almost daily for his work, cannot access the DNC Town Hall podcast from his computer either.  So, at least this provides some confirmation from a separate party that my efforts to connect to the DNC are being obstructed without explanation.  The motive for the FBI to prevent my participation in these events is readily apparent, unfortunately, and, despite the fact that the the responsible party is violating my Constitutional freedoms in preventing this dialogue, the perpetrators appear to feel no hesitation in doing so.

Most sincerely,




Lane MacWilliams

* Please also see the following email sent to the attention of the OIG Hotline within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams774192gmail.com, and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing a subject heading of ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Vista Verde Way Neighbor Tom Bleier, London's David Parfitt, sent on December 29, 2023 at 11:58 AM.



True North

My parents were committed sailors, in completely disparate ways.

Once, the Captain of a catboat told my mother, "Whatever happens, don't let go of that boom."

So, she flung her arms around it, and, as the wind swung the seven hundred pound boom out over the blue Atlantic, my mother held on.

When he later saw her predicament, the Captain shouted in astonishment, "Jan!  What are you doing?"

"I'm holding on!" she answered.

Her eventual splash into the water below was balletic.  She was elegantly dressed, wearing a broad-brimmed hat and sunglasses at the time, and the rest of us were incredulous that she was now treading water below.

But, her actions had actually helped to prevent a capsize, and so she was heroic in her drenched state of beauty.  We all stared as if we had never seen anything so glamorously accidental, so gorgeously committed.

She climbed back on board with laughter and Grace.

My father, by contrast, sailed across the sea like Magellan.

He turned his halcyon blue eyes to the currents, the waves, the cat's paws with which the wind was patterning the water -- and he knew how to chart his course.

"We're going to be coming about in fifteen seconds or so," he would say, calmly.

But, if we were in the middle of a race, which we often were, those quiet words meant, be ready, because it's important that we're expert throughout this tack.

My father always won his races.  And on the water, he was as calm as a compass pointing to True North.  Steady.  Imperturbable.  Stoic.  And mysterious.

He communicated with the sea in the way a mystic would, with long silences, profound insight, and a gaze that traveled all the way to the horizon.

His crew never wanted to let him down.

In the summer of 1976, when I had just turned fourteen, my father announced to me that he thought I was ready to Captain my own races.  There was a Junior racing series starting in a few days' time, and he thought I should sign up.

My noble and expert father proposed himself as the crew.

So, we traded places in our Herreshoff, and the tiller suddenly appeared under my own hand.

Much to my astonishment, I won my races, too.

The most important things to know were not to be learned in a sailing lesson, it turned out.  The transformative knowledge lay in the pull of the tides, which I could feel if I held myself still and grasped the tiller lightly.  It lay in the sound of the wind passing over our close-hauled sail.  It lay in the arc of the spinnaker, ballooning brightly above our heads.

It lay in knowledge, in judgement, in goodness, in intuition, and in faith.

The sea was a wilderness and the beast within it, and it would swallow you whole if you forgot that truth.

So knowledge, judgement, goodness, intuition and faith were all required.

President Biden, as our Commander in Chief, knows this wisdom well.

I see in him the Captain's True North, as I have seen in the best sailors.  I see in him the gaze that extends all the way to the horizon.  I see in him the expert knowledge of the currents and the waves.  I see in him the measure of the wind and its intent.

President Biden is navigating our way through the shallows and the narrows that represent democracy's greatest test.

On the deck of that endeavor, may we be worthy, may we be ready, may we be expert, may we be committed.

The endurance of our freedoms will depend on the gifts of our Captain, and it will depend on the character the rest of us bring to the race.

President Biden is sounding the call that we in the American electorate need to bring everything we've got to this voyage.

I am answering him with my sovereign promise to do so.

Lane MacWilliams

Planned DNC Participation Today

OIG Hotline, please be apprised that I will attempt once more to participate in a DNC Town Hall podcast hosted by the DNC at 12:00 noon today, December 29, 2023.

I will report back here regarding my ability to join in this event without obstruction.

Gratefully,




Lane MacWilliams


Allegedly Corrupted Ameripac Survey

OIG Hotline, please be apprised that I completed an ostensible survey from Ameripac using the following link on my cell phone ending in 1467: bit.ly/3tuCCTe.

After I submitted the survey, I received a warning that my answers may have been falsified without my participation or consent.

My actual answers, in addition to a screenshot of the survey link and the receipt of my donation to Ameripac, can be found within an email directed to the attention of the OIG Hotline within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the subject heading ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Allegedly Corrupted Ameripac Survey; sent at 7:38 AM.

Clearly, if AI were being deployed to alter the answers of political survey respondents online, this would represent a serious matter.

Altered survey data could have substantive impacts on the political campaigns of all candidates who oppose the far right, so the challenge to our democratic processes, should such corruption be occurring, would be substantive.

Perhaps this instance, assessed by your Office, can help to assess whether such tampering with critical data is occurring.

Thank you for allowing me to document these concerns.

Most sincerely,




Lane MacWilliams


Thursday, December 28, 2023

Important New Email for the OIG Hotline

OIG Hotline, please be apprised of a new email sent to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, with copies sent to lmacwilliams77419@gmail..com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com, bearing the following subject heading and date/time stamp:

  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Pressing Concerns for the MacWilliams Family in Light of Ongoing Predation by the FBI and Its Affiliates; sent on December 28, 2023 at 10:31 AM
As you know, the OIG Hotline has my full permission to access my email accounts at any time your Office so desires.

Most sincerely,






Lane MacWilliams

Biscuit

 My father called me "Biscuit." And he was the only one.

He liked the way I savored three buttered biscuits with honey at dinner time.

I think it showed him there were certain things I wanted out of life.

And, perhaps because I was gangly and slight, he wanted to encourage that personal claim.

One Christmas, in 1966, my father gave me a set of red wooden skis.  They were perfect, in their way.  Shellacked like polished apples.  Unblemished.  The bindings shining in polished silver.  I was four years old, and I viewed them with awe.

The following week, he took our family to Pat's Peak, where he spent the entire first day skiing down the mountain while holding me between his own skis, snow-ploughing in a giant S down the slope.

I had realized, by the age of four, that my father was regarded by all who knew him as an important man.

I had also realized that he could have paid for me to have a beginning ski lesson.

Instead, he wanted to show me something about how we help each other navigate the inclines.

I was mindful, even at the time, of his choice.  It was generous, protective, and abundantly loving -- all three.

And, in truth, it was one of hundreds of examples of his parenting of me in which he conveyed that he thought I could manage something about which I might have been uneasy at first.

He thought I could swim all the way across the cold mountain lake.  He thought I could learn how to jump a fence on horseback.  He thought I could race a sailboat and win.

He offered his encouragements with a wink, and he called me "Biscuit" when he spoke them.

And he was always right.

I did do all those things, along with meeting a bevy of challenges that were considerably harder.

All of which is to say that I think my father understood the soul of leadership.

People rise to their best when they are unreasonably loved, unfailingly encouraged, guided to undertake the difficult, mysterious adventures that promise to teach them something new.

Whenever I hear President Biden speak to the American people, I hear him guiding us in the same way.

He knows that certain challenges are formidable, but he also believes we can meet them.  And behind those words of good faith and guidance, his great love for this nation is evident.

Like my father, President Biden is both a good man and a great one -- a man of good faith, insight, integrity, and abiding hope for the future.

Our nation's good fortune in claiming him as our Commander-in-Chief at this crossroads in our democracy represents a rare gift -- a shining chance that our freedoms may endure.

The electorate may need that gifts further explained.

The necessity for everyone to help our nation answer democracy's call is pressing and profound, as President Biden has explained.  He believes the electorate needs to know why.

If I can help, I want to answer that call.

A great and noble man once called me "Biscuit," and another great and noble man is calling Americans to our best once more.

So, I would be honored to try.




Lane MacWilliams


Emails to OIG Hotline with Donation Documentation

 OIG Hotline, please be apprised of three emails forwarded to your attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com, lmacwilliams77419@gmail.com and lmacwilliams7417@gmail.com with the following subject headings and date/time stamps:

  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Thank you for your contribution to Joe Biden!; sent on December 28, 2023 at 5:26 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Thank you for your contribution to Joe Biden!; sent on December 28, 2023 at 5:25 AM
  • ATTN: OIG HOTLINE Re: Thank you for your contribution to Joe Biden!; sent on December 28, 2023 at 5:24 AM
Please share this documentation with any other Offices which may have need of it.

As you know, the OIG Hotline has my full permission to access my email accounts at any time your Office so desires.

Most sincerely,






Lane MacWilliams