My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Sunday, February 26, 2023

Why I Can No Longer Use Quora

1.  You have become alarmed by some perceived changes to your access of Quora lately.

Answer:  Yes, I have.  

2.  How have you accessed this site in the past?

Answer:  If I receive email notifications on topics of interest, such as "bootlogger" hacks of the electronic devices of "targets of interest," or OSINT as a means of aggregating falsified information concerning "targets of interest," I might open the application to read further.

3.  Has the information been useful?

Answer:  It has, yes.  For example, it was a Quora poster who alerted me to the Cat 5 hardwiring solution to prevent Wifi piggybacking by near neighbors.  This will, I believe, ultimately confer some tangible protection against online identity theft for my family members.

4.  So what is the problem that has emerged recently?

Answer:  Over the last two weeks or so, when I have attempted to learn more about topics related to the concerns of "targets of interest," the Quora feed will -- as the 20th or 25th listed topic on a open page -- include inappropriate content.

5.  What do you mean by inappropriate?

Answer:  Off-topic, explicit content that I would never seek out in a million years.

6.  Do you exit the page the moment you see that an embedded topic, wrongfully included among myriad "target of interest" topics, has been placed on the page?

Answer:  Immediately, yes.  But I still feel that this information is intended to discredit me as a law-abiding whistleblower of FBI misconduct.  So, I simply cannot access the platform under these circumstances.

7.  Is it your understanding that Quora is signatory to Infragard?

Answer:  It is.

8.  Have you had concerns about Quora's conduct in the past?

Answer:  I have been concerned about Quora's apparent willingness to publish comments by "targets of interest" that appear to be advocating for capital punishment as a just response to the harassment and harms that seem to be part of the FBI's "target of interest" protocol.

9.  Why do you feel this commentary is inappropriate?

Answer:  Justice should be reserved for the judicial system.  

10.  Don't law-abiding "targets of interest" have a right to feel upset about being slandered, defamed, and otherwise harmed by far right FBI personnel through the manifestation of the unconstitutional "target of interest" program?

Answer:  They do have that right.  But it is necessary for "targets of interest" to always advocate for the rule of law when it comes to addressing those who have preyed upon them.

11.  Why do you feel so strongly about this?

Answer:  The far right wants to depict "targets of interest" as dangerous, irrational, impulsive, violent criminals who need to be surveilled, controlled, and punished in order for society to remain safe and secure.  But everything about this objective is wrong.  "Targets of interest" need to show the world how distorted this extremist ideology is by personifying ethics, conscience, fortitude, equanimity and grace under exceptionally difficult circumstances.

12.  Your point is that "targets of interest" need to demonstrate the character and integrity their harassers are lacking.

Answer:  Yes, they do.

And, to return to the subject of this post, they need to reject online platforms such as Quora, which appear to cooperate with an agenda of mischaracterization of "targets of interest."

13.  You reject explicit, exploitive online content, whether it appears on Quora or elsewhere.

Answer:  Emphatically.  Women and children do not need to be victimized and exploited in online spaces or in real life.  Yet, the falsified law enforcement reporting of far right FBI personnel unquestionably commits malfeasance in both of these spheres.

14.  Do you hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct?

Answer:  I do.




Lane MacWilliams

The Fate of a Mooring

Email sent to: quissett@meganet.net. From: lanemacwilliams@gmail.com  Date:  Monday, February 20, 2023 at 4:32 PM

Re:  Please let me know date for mooring commissioning this spring.

Hi Weatherly,

I hope you're enjoying President's Day.  I am delighted to have a little extra time with Ken here in Portola Valley.

Weatherly, I wanted to ask you to let me know when you plan to install my mooring tacking this spring.  If you can let me know the specific date in advance, I would certainly appreciate it.

I am going to ask that the mooring be evaluated by an independent party immediately following the spring commissioning, for the sole reason that I am informed that your FBI handler is instructing sabotage of the mooring in some manner.

Hopefully, having more eyes on the situation at a sooner point -- and regularly throughout the season -- will discourage your handler from extending further unlawful directives regarding my mooring.

Your official inspection should happen in September, as I mentioned -- although I would appreciate your scheduling it now so as not to encounter any problems with Town deadlines.

Of concern, it is alleged that Gregg Fraser has accepted pay from Infragard in order to advance the FBI's unlawful intention of cancelling my mooring.  If true, corruption of a public official in this capacity is actually quite a serious matter.  Whatever the situation, I hope Mr. Fraser is able to consult his conscience and hold to his public mandate rather than accede to criminal actors on the far right.  We will see how he conducts himself.

Thank you for keeping in touch with me with regard to specifics of the mooring commissioning.

Sincerely,

Lane MacWilliams

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Email sent to: paula.cushman@falmouthma.gov. From:  lanemacwilliams@gmail.com. Date: February 26, 2023 at 5:04 PM

Paula, I wanted to touch base with you, due to the fact that I am informed that Gregg Fraser's FBI handler is working on some scheme, the details of which are unknown to me, to decommission my mooring in the future.

I have been in communication with Weatherly Dorris about this predicament.

Because it is alleged that Gregg Fraser is accepting compensation from Infragard for his cooperation in this plan, I am uncomfortable in receiving communications from him directly.  He is a public official who has accepted responsibility for serving the town of Falmouth with fairness and equity, avoiding all conflicts of interest.  Due to my status as a whistleblower of FBI malfeasance in the form of knowingly falsified law enforcement reporting against law-abiding American citizens, this circumstance presents clear conflict of interest for all of the FBI handlers and "informants" involved.

I would ask that you reach out to me right away if Mr. Fraser's handler is conveying any directives to the Harbor Master's Office concerning my mooring.

I am sharing this communication with others, as it may pertain to a federal investigation of FBI malfeasance connected to whistleblower retaliation in this instance.

Thank you very much for your support in preventing any directed sabotage of my mooring or decommissioning of my mooring as the result of any predatory directives of FBI personnel.

Sincerely,

Lane MacWilliams

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Friday, February 24, 2023

Is Stanford Medicine Lying About My Son's MRI Exam at the Direction of FBI Personnel?

OIG Hotline investigators, this is to document that the radiologist's report concerning my older son's pituitary MRI, conducted last Saturday, February 18, 2023, has been withheld from us all week, despite repeated requests.

My stalker has indicated that my son has a pituitary tumor, which would implicate Dr. Jacob Ballon, his FBI handler, and Stanford Medicine of reprehensible malfeasance.

It appears that FBI personnel may be attempting to replace my son's current pituitary exam with a prior one, conducted several years ago.

Dr. Ballon is alleging, as of today, that the radiologist's report states nearly identical findings to that of the radiologist's findings several years ago.  Please see his emailed response, below, to one of my husband's multiple requests for the radiologist's report.

My son's HGH is 550% of the upper bound of normal.

I would be shocked if he did not have a pituitary tumor.

This prolonged delay leads me to question what is more important in this situation: the health of my son, whose care has been sorely neglected as a direct result of the FBI's longterm attempts to force his physician to misdiagnose him?  Or the ego of the FBI handler who prompted these wrongs?

In my opinion, there is no contest.

Dr. Jacob Ballon and Stanford Medicine need to provide us with a copy of the radiology report based on the pituitary MRI exam my son underwent last week, February 18, 2023.  We should be provided with a digital copy of that study as well, not a fraudulent replacement.

My son has suffered unacceptable delays in diagnosis and treatment due to the machinations of far right FBI personnel intent on depicting a whistleblower and her family as "unbalanced."

The FBI should have no authority, no purview, and no involvement in the private medical care of law-abiding American citizens.  None whatsoever.

The attempt of far right FBI staff to continue to obstruct my son's access to medical care which has already been withheld from him constitutes a grievous wrong.

Innocent people can and do perish when truthfulness and integrity in medical care are abandoned out of a desire to avoid accountability.

I will also note that my son's MRI cost our insurer $16,000 and the expertise of the technician, the radiologist, and Dr. Jacob Ballon.  Was that investment a charade or can genuine care be rendered to a young man who deserves prompt, compassionate, capable and ethical engagement from his medical care providers?

If my husband and I are provided with a falsified radiologist's report and/or an MRI exam that simply copies my son's exam from several years' past, we will promptly pay for an alternate study at a medical center that demonstrates a commitment to rendering ethical and honest care to its patients.  Those principles should not be a rarity.

If I am correct in my assessment of my son's medical condition, Dr. Jacob Ballon and all involved will then have some serious explaining to do.

I welcome the involvement of OIG Hotline investigators in assessing Stanford Medicine's unusual failure to provide us with our son's radiology report upon request.

I will be updating your Office with new developments in this matter.

Most sincerely,




Lane MacWilliams

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Email sent to: kpmacw@gmail.com. From: jballon@stanford.edu. Date: February 24, 2023

I'm not sure that I can figure out what I sent as the secure message at this point...I'll see if I can track it down in my sent folder.

Meanwhile, the MRI doesn't seem to have been much changed from previous -- with the caveat that the scan is limited by the lack of contrast.

Jacob Ballon, M.D., M.P.H., Clinical Professor, Stanford University, Phone 650-723-3305, Fax: 877-917-8652, Email: jballon@stanford.edu


A Transcribed Conversation with Fidelity Employee Johnny O'Meara

OIG Hotline, given that Fidelity is signatory to Infragard, and given that both Fidelity and Brighthouse/MetLife failed to send my 1099 tax documentation for 2022, I transcribed my conversation this morning with both organizations.

Because Johnny O'Meara reversed himself several times regarding his willingness to provide necessary tax documents to me, I include an excerpt our transcribed conversation below.  

In Mr. O'Meara's defense, I have never had difficulty with the willingness of any Fidelity employee to provide information before, and I do not believe Mr. O'Meara would have been likely to obstruct anyone's request for tax documentation without external influence.

The dialogue that follows here represents an excerpt close to the conclusion of our call.

I hereby certify that all of this information is true and correct.




Lane MacWilliams

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February 24, 2023 at 11:24 AM

Lane MacWilliams:  Just to confirm, your name is Jonathan, correct?

Jonathan O'Meara:  Just call me Johnny.  Johnny O'Meara.

Lane MacWilliams:  I'm sorry, your last name is?

Jonathan O'Meara:  O'Meara. (spelling) O-M-E-A-R-A.

Lane MacWilliams: Ok, great.  So, Johnny, I appreciate your help today.  To confirm, we discussed obtaining tax forms for 2022, and you have assisted me in requesting duplicates of those forms to to be sent to my mailing address of 45 xxxxx xxxxx xxx, xxxxxxx xxxxxx, CA xxxxx.  To confirm, we had a productive conversation, and I'd like to ask you just a couple of questions before the conclusion of our call.

Everything I've said to you has made perfect logical sense.  Is that correct, Johnny?  You've understood what I've said and what I've requested, and it has made logical sense to you.

Jonathan O'Meara:  One hundred percent.  Yes.

Lane MacWilliams:  Ok.  Do you have any questions at all or any concerns with regard to my requests of you?

Jonathan O'Meara:  Not at all.

A Letter to Camille Leung of the San Mateo County Planning Office

OIG Hotline investigators, it seems that "Bryan Apple" is a creation of the FBI's imagination -- a fake identity intended to shield the MROSD from charges of corruption and malfeasance.

What is my first thought in considering the arson/wildfire that appear to constitute the central threat within the far right's attempt to perpetrate this harm under color of law?

My first thought is the defense of the innocent lives and the pristine wilderness surrounding me.  The beloved families, the cherished homes, the magnificent wildlife, the verdant hills -- all irreplaceable parts of our community, our California, our country.

Surely an FBI that would seek to turn these gifts to cinders and ash has lost its way.

What is my second thought in considering this intended crime?  My second thought is that $272,000 represents the price of a college education for some talented and deserving American who cannot afford the tuition, room and board.

Are we as a nation investing in one another in a manner that enriches Americans' contributions to our shared future?

Or are there some on the far right who would take delight in destroying the dreams of their fellow countrymen?

Members of the American public cannot make an informed decision at the ballot box without full knowledge of the implications of their choice.

I believe that choice should be illuminated for them with courage, fortitude, principle and grace in the face of adversity.

The soul of our nation demands that the truth of this matter be spoken out loud.

Our nation's character is worth our steadfast commitment, our heartfelt words, our declared faith in one another as Americans.

These are the offerings I extend.

Most sincerely,




Lane MacWilliams

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Email sent to: cleung@smcgov.org, smonowitz@smcgov.org. Date: February 24, 2023 at 2:53 PM

Dear Camille:

Please allow me to convey to you some important background concerning my stance as a whistleblower of FBI malfeasance concerning the MROSD project, County File #PLN2022-00333.  While on the one hand, you may not feel compelled by the details concerning the FBI's initiation of the Alpine Road Bypass Trail and retaining wall project, this is a circumstance which is likely to receive public attention in the future.  As such, your decision-making surrounding this matter will be scrutinized, and your FBI handler's actions will be evaluated as well.  So, your full knowledge is a necessary prerequisite to your informed decision-making process.

I have, quite by chance, found myself in the position of whistleblower concerning FBI corruption of the Nationwide Suspicious Activity Reporting Initiative (NSARI) and the agency's affiliated "target of interest" program.  It appears that far right FBI personnel and their affiliates have been engaged in knowingly falsified law enforcement reporting against law-abiding American citizens for anti-democratic objectives.  Falsified witness statements, fake messaging, fake photos, AI-generated video co-opting the likeness of "targets," edited and misattributed audio recordings, planted DNA "evidence" and more have been utilized to mischaracterize law-abiding "targets of interest" as "spies," "terrorists" and/or "predators" within FBI documentation.

The NSARI and the affiliated "target of interest" program draw billions in congressional budget appropriations yearly, and the FBI seeks to grow the lists of "targets" surveilled under their auspices by at least 10% yearly.  Many law-abiding American citizens have been wrongfully surveilled as a result.  Democrats and journalists appear to be over-represented on "target of interest" lists, as do women and Americans of color.

This issue is currently being investigated by the Office of the Inspector General Hotline of the U.S. Department of Justice as an "insider threat" to our democracy.  I intend to serve as a witness for that investigation if asked to do so.

It is fair to say that the FBI is not particularly happy with me as a result.  My life has been under active and daily threat, as have the lives of my family members.

FBI affiliates appear to have engaged in trespass on my property with the intent of causing physical harm. Frankly, it has been nothing short of miraculous that we are all still here to tell the tale,

I am told that the $272,000 grant from Santa Clara County for the MROSD project actually originated with the FBI/Infragard.  The project is contiguous to the western edge of my property line, and I have, I'm sorry to report, received threats of arson intended to cause wildfire connected to PLN2022-00333, as well as trespass onto my property by FBI affiliates intended to cause my family grievous harm.

While the threats may sound unlikely to manifest to the casual observer, I have reason to believe they should be viewed seriously.

Any FBI involvement in this project should, in the interest of preventing whistleblower retaliation, lead to a postponement of approval.

As it seems that the role of Bryan Apple in this project has been carefully crafted and defined by FBI personnel, I believe the Planning Office should advocate for the welfare of lives and property within San Mateo County by withholding approval until such time as the details of this matter can be thoroughly investigated.

Thank you for allowing me to express the need for your principled advocacy in this matter.

Sincerely yours,

Lane MacWilliams

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A Letter to the Staff of My Sister's House

Email sent to: slong@my-sisters-house.org, mcoleman@my-sisters-house.org, info@my-sisters-house.org From: lanemacwilliams@gmail.com. Date:  February 24, 2023 at 1:34 PM

Re:  An Important Request of the Staff of My Sister's House:

To the wonderful staff of My Sister's House:

I visited My Sister's Cafe and My Sister's House in Sacramento a couple of years ago, at one point speaking to an intake person regarding my stalker's predators and, in a related matter, my local Sheriff's Department's refusal to provide me with an associated law enforcement report on my stalker.

It was through this visit that I first learned that many women in the State of California cannot obtain reports regarding their stalkers from local law enforcement agencies.

Since that time, I have become apprised of the fact that the FBI appears to be guiding local law enforcement agencies -- and in fact compensating them -- for knowingly falsified law enforcement reporting that appears designed to draw law-abiding victims into a federal surveillance system under the heading of the FBI's "target of interest" program.

Stalking victims are often willfully mischaracterized within local law enforcement reporting as "unstable," "mentally ill," or "making no logical sense," and are, without their knowledge, referred to "Adult Protective Services" as justification for placing them under surveillance.

This issue is currently being investigated by the Office of the Inspector General Hotline of the U.S. Department of Justice as an "insider threat" to our democracy, posed by far right elements within both federal and local law enforcement.

My stalker has suggested that My Sister's House was contacted by FBI personnel following my visit.  He has further suggested that "witness statements" from your staff were falsified by the FBI to claim that I suffer from both physical illness and psychological disability.

This communication constitutes my respectful request that My Sister's House review any and all witness statements its staff may have provided to the FBI to correct all falsifications that may be present within them.

I am fortunate in being both physically and psychologically healthy.  These gifts have allowed me to take on the challenging role of whistleblower of FBI malfeasance in the agency's corruption of the Nationwide Suspicious Activity Reporting Initiative and the affiliated "target of interest" program.

No woman should be reduced to a "target" of predatory law enforcement when she has turned to these very agencies for protection from harm.

My advocacy for the civil liberties and human rights of stalking victims within the United States is actually an advocacy that seeks to defend the human rights of all Americans.

You will assist my efforts, and by extension, the cause of our democracy, by ensuring that all FBI statements attributed to your staff in this matter reflect the character, integrity and truthfulness that are required to render women safe -- within your auspices and within our society.

Please accept my gratitude for your efforts to set this record straight.  The words of your staff members matter in ensuring that I speak with appropriate credibility as I express my concerns about this issue in the public realm.

Sincerely yours,

Lane MacWilliams

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Thursday, February 23, 2023

A Letter to My Minister

OIG Hotline investigators, I sent this email to the Reverend Matthew McDermott of St. Mark's in Palo Alto this morning in response to specific information I received indicating that falsified witness statements were being produced within the FBI, attributed to the Rev. McDermott.

I hereby certify that the foregoing is true and correct.




Lane MacWilliams

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Email sent to:  Matt@saint-marks.com. From: lanemacwilliams@gmail.com. Date: February 23, 2023 at 10:41 AM

Re:  An Important Request of You Re: Signed Statements

Matt, I hope this email finds you well.

I was delighted to hear the news about Nikky's new call.  What a wonderful track record you have of nurturing new ministers into their full strength -- leading them to serve congregations of their own.

I have been immersed in the process of furthering an investigation into falsified law enforcement reporting as it is currently being perpetrated by far right FBI personnel.  It appears that segments of the FBI have been co-opting local law enforcement, falsified witness statements, and many aspects of false "evidence" in a scheme to wrongfully implicate law-abiding "targets of interest" of crimes of which they have no knowledge.

I am sorry to say that the FBI appears to be extending funds to churches in order to co-opt the testaments of ministers against certain law-abiding members of their congregations, and this effort appears to be particularly concerted in the case of whistleblowers like myself.

Unfortunately, the FBI often further falsifies informant statements in a process that is entirely internal to the agency.  So, "witnesses" often have their signatures appended to statements of which they never approved.

Given this pattern of prevarication on the part of agency personnel, I would respectfully request that you review all previous witness statements you have provided to your FBI hander (aka St. Mark's FBI liaison).

Please insist that the statements in these reports correspond to your directly observed knowledge of the absolute truth, and do not speculate about "suspicious" behavior or uncertain observations.  Please omit all vague language and be alert to phrases that can be excised to misrepresent your recollections.

Because I am endeavoring to defend the civil liberties and human rights of all Americans in furthering an investigation of this matter within the Office of the Inspector General Hotline of the U.S. Department of Justice, your words matter -- and not just to me.  They matter to many, many other Americans who have been wrongfully designated by far right factions of the FBI as "targets of interest" for anti-democratic purposes.

In ensuring that your statements adhere to the absolute truth, you are contributing to the well-being and safety of many.

So, I thank you in advance for taking a conscientious and insistent approach to this request, even if your FBI handler objects.

Our courage defines us so beautifully in circumstances such as these.  I have been privileged to learn that my own courage, expressed in the defense of innocents, is quite limitless.  That knowledge has represented one of the greatest gifts of this journey to date.

You and St. Mark's remain in my prayers.

In Christ,

Lane MacWilliams

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