My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Saturday, November 2, 2024

UPDATE: The Truth Remains the Truth

UPDATE: 

Updated text conversations with older son, November 2, 2024: (OIG Hotline, for unredacted content, please see an email sent to your Office's attention within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com at 6:02 PM.

LM to older son: 

Gxxxxx, love, I understand that your (redacted content) is directing you to cast aspersions on my character and state of mind at this time.  So, let's make this more simple for you.  I realize that you are not a psychiatrist and therefore are unable to render any opinion on mental health issues that would require psychiatric care.  Last week you confirmed that I am honorable, compassionate and law-abiding in all respects.  Do you feel comfortable doing so again?

Older son to LM:

I confirm you are honorable, lawful and compassionate!

LM to older son:

And always have been.  Thank you, Gxxxxx.  I am also psychologically stable and resilient, and thank heavens for all of us.

Do you also agree that your father is honorable, lawful and compassionate, and always has been?

Older son to LM:

Yes I do.

LM to older son: 

Thank you very much for this confirmation on both fronts, Gxxxxx.  We as your parents, as you know, love you very deeply and have always been supportive and truthful toward you.  That's a gift we extend to the wider world as well as a testament to our integrity and goodwill.  You have a wonderful foundation in these gifts.  I believe you know that, and I believe you hold them in great esteem. You certainly have told me so.

Older son to LM:

Thanks, I really appreciate that!

LM to older son:

You are quite welcome, sweetheart.  I appreciate your truthfulness in acknowledging the facts.  Please be assured of my resilience and rationality at all times.  The goal of  my efforts -- (redacted content) -- has required a Herculean commitment.  But it has been motivated by the highest ideals and aspirations for (redacted content).

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*Please allow me to once again extend the disclaimer that some threats received by me and extended by the FBI are unsubstantiated by me at this time.  I regret that I am unable to assess the credibility of every threat extended by this agency or its affiliates, and also that I am not in a position to judge the likelihood of manifestation.  Having said that, many of the FBI's threats toward my family in the past have manifested in real-world harms.  As a result, I believe that FBI threats extended to me must be viewed as potentially substantive.

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OIG Hotline, I have emailed to your attention my texts to my older son, the redacted content of which is included below,  this morning, November 2, 2024, within lanemacwilliams@gmail.com at 9:55 AM.

I will provide my son's response as soon as it is available to me.  While others may delay his answer for their own objectives, I have every confidence that my son will provide the truth of this matter to investigators and to us as his parents. 

Most fundamentally, I will express that the Truth can never be abandoned, betrayed, disregarded, diminished, revised, vanquished or undone.

The Truth remains the Truth, inviolable and possessing of its own inextinguishable power.

It deserves our respect, as do those who speak it, even and especially under duress.

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LM to GTM, November 1, 2024, 9:29 PM:

Thank you, sweetheart!

LM to GTM, November 1, 2024, 9:29 PM:

How was the day?

GTM to LM, November 2, 2024, 7:44 AM:

It was good, we had (redacted content).

LM To GTM, November 2, 2024, 7:52 AM:

Was there a focus on (redacted content)?

GTM to LM, November 2, 2024, 8:01 AM

That one is on (redacted content).  These (redacted content) focused on (redacted content).

LM to GTM, November 2, 2024, 8:13 AM:

Gray, sweetheart, are you able to be perfectly honest in attesting to the fact that, while I always support medical access, I myself have never needed or seen a psychiatrist, have never been on psychiatric medication, never exhibited addiction, narcissism, instability, psychosis or delusions, never abused a child or an elder, never harmed anyone, always followed the law, and always upheld the civil liberties and human rights of all?  I am asking for your confirmation for a specific reason, sweetheart, as it seems false statements have been recently coerced regarding these concerns and many others.

LM to GTM, November 2, 2024, 8:17 AM:

It would be very helpful if you could truthfully confirm that your father also is an entirely honorable and lawful person who has harmed no one, who has upheld the highest personal and professional standards, and who has always exhibited (as he now doess!) benevolence, respect and lawfulness in all of his conduct.

LM to GTM, November 2, 2024 at 9:39 AM:

And Gray, I do realize that you may be directed by a third party to complain about these communications in order to avoid answering.  But I would appeal to your ethics and honesty in my respectful request that you refuse this approach.  It's wrong for anyone to ask you to attest to wrongful conduct by your parents that was never perpetrated.  Good people simply need to stand up to these tactics in speaking the truth about virtue and honor where they genuinely reside.

LM to GTM, November 2, 2024 at 9:46 AM:

P.S. - Please allow me to once again extend the disclaimer that some threats received by me are unsubstantiated by me at this time.  I regret that I am unable to assess the credibility of every threat, and also that I am not in a position to judge the likelihood of manifestation.

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Most respectfully, 

Lane MacWilliams

*Please allow me to once again extend the disclaimer that some threats received by me and extended by the FBI are unsubstantiated by me at this time.  I regret that I am unable to assess the credibility of every threat extended by this agency or its affiliates, and also that I am not in a position to judge the likelihood of manifestation.  Having said that, many of the FBI's threats toward my family in the past have manifested in real-world harms.  As a result, I believe that FBI threats extended to me must be viewed as potentially substantive.


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