My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Friday, January 3, 2025

Update: When the Government Profits from the Destruction of American Families

Update:  A disclaimer appears at the end of this post.



1.  What has been your recent experience in speaking to your 31-year-old son?

Answer:  Extremely upsetting.  I don't recognize his moral center.  His sovereignty has been entirely usurped through a DoD experiment.  He generally tells me the truth, and he generally lies to my husband -- sometimes within sixty seconds regarding the same topic. And the gap created by this discrepancy has absolutely destroyed my marriage.

2.  The FBI's "target of interest" program has destroyed your marriage?

Answer:  Oh, yes.  Yes, it has.  Too much time has passed without my Freedom of Information Act being fulfilled, without FRCP 23 being fulfilled, without investigative standards being fulfilled.  I have seen these fundamental pieces of the architecture of our democracy just fall away, and my family along with it.

3.  Your sons are not themselves, due to the FBI's predations.

Answer:  That's putting it mildly.

4.  And your family has been destroyed by the corruption of the government, by the apparent failure of anyone to put you in contact with an attorney with whom you can seek active representation.

Answer:  Yes, everyone who has advocated delay, denial, false accusations, experimentation, disease conveyance, dishonesty, corruption -- all of these individuals have ruined our family.  This is the reality.  

I spent many years teaching my sons to develop their own identity, a strong moral compass, a unassailable ethical center -- and all of that has been wiped out by inhuman experimentation by the FBI and its cohort within the DoD.

5.  Their personalities are simply gone?

Answer:  They seem mostly gone, yes.  It may be true that their genuine identities are in hibernation.  I cannot say.  But there are obvious brain changes as the result of what the FBI has done to them.  So this is hugely frightening territory.  If Americans knew that the FBI was experimenting on them in this manner, they would be horrified.

6.  What has happened to the 7.2 trillion dollars that were allegedly awarded in your name through the auspices of the OIG Hotline and the ODNI?

Answer:  I have had no formal notification of those funds.  They have been claimed by me in their entirety, on behalf of the millions of "targets of interest" whose suffering occasioned their award, and the OIG Hotline and the ODNI should be in direct communication with me at this time.

7.  You're quite upset that that outreach has not yet occurred.

Answer:  I am.

8.  In the meantime, you are receiving death threats daily, and your sons and MX are both under extreme threat.  Is that correct?

Answer:  Yes, it is.

9.  Have you had follow up from the attorneys you contacted on behalf of your son?

Answer:  Four queries.  No follow ups.

10.  Has the FBI obstructed that process?

Answer:  Almost certainly.

11.  How does it make you feel to be, once again, deprived of two-way dialogue with any representation whatsoever?

Answer:  Devastated.  Annihilated.  Erased.  It represents a horrible deprivation of Constitutional rights.  Absolutely indefensible.

12.  Who is responsible?

Answer:  Everyone who is profiteering from our suffering.  Everyone who is acting parasitically to benefit from these systems of knowingly false reporting and associated harms against the innocent.  Everyone who thinks that these systems of predation are acceptable to a civilized society.  All of these people are responsible for what has happened to my family and millions of other virtuous American families.

13.  Does anyone other than you seem concerned about the long term implications for our country or for the freedom of mankind?

Answer:  I am in dialogue with no one about this issue.  So, no.  No one has bothered to uphold my Constitutional rights, and I have labored harder than any other American ever will regarding this issue, quite frankly.  

14.  You have given up hope that anyone will engage in just or appropriate action toward you or your loved ones.

Answer:  Our country seems to have fallen into the hands of criminals, thieves, slanderers and murderers within the FBI and its cohort.  It's important to be realistic about that.  For us, there has been no relief, no justice, no restorative health care, no restorative answer to my complaint on behalf of many, many virtuous people.

15.  People have simply used you as pawns from which to profiteer?

Answer:  This appears to be the case.

16.  What is your view of that decision?

Answer:  It's a horrific choice.  Condemnatory in every way.  Brutal, selfish, murderous, short-sighted, hateful, wrongful, indefensible, and inexcusable.

17.  That's a harsh evaluation. of our nation's leaders.

Answer:  What leaders?  You'll forgive me, but I haven't seen them.  I haven't met them.  I haven't received their letters.  I haven't spoken to them.  I haven't been provided with evidence of any leaders whatsoever.

18.  What's your response to people who tell you to have a cheerful attitude?

Answer:  When soldiers entered Auschwitz and saw those who had survived horrific ordeals there, would it have been appropriate for them to castigate survivors in that moment by telling them to have cheerful attitude?  No.  It would have been the height of abuse.  People need to see signs of humanity in others, and when they are deprived of those signs over the course of years, which my family has been, they will not feel cheerful, I assure you.

19.  You are deeply upset about the crimes of everyone involved in this debacle.

Answer:  Yes.  

20.  Are we a failed nation?

Answer:  It would appear so, yes.

21.  Whom do you fault the most?

Answer:  Those who have been reading my blog can spell the names.

22.  What do you need most at this time?

Answer:  Outreach from a lawyer.  Restorative medical care.  Addressal of all outstanding concerns.

23.  Please keep us informed of your family's wellbeing.

Answer:  My family is decidedly unwell because of the FBI.  My marriage is foundering because of the FBI.  Our health is not our own because of the FBI, and that's the understatement of the millenium.  We need some evidence that someone actually gives a damn about the Constitution as it applies to my case, the rule of law as it applies to my case, civil liberties as they apply to my case, and human rights as they apply to my case.

But yes, I will keep you informed as possible.

Lane MacWilliams

P.S. -- Please allow me to once again extend the disclaimer that some threats received by me and extended by the FBI are unsubstantiated by me at this time.  I regret that I am unable to assess the credibility of every threat extended by this agency or its affiliates, and also that I am not in a position to judge the likelihood of manifestation.  Having said that, many of the FBI's threats toward my family in the past have manifested in real-world harms.  As a result, I believe that FBI threats extended to me must be viewed as potentially substantive.

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