Lane von Herzen: Restricted Access: For OIG Hotline Investigators Only

My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.

Tuesday, January 24, 2023

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OIG Hotline investigators, I am cognizant of the fact that my stalker appears to extend disinformation to me quite readily. I regret that I am unable to distinguish which information represents a serious threat from which information is intended to discredit my efforts.

Because I have witnessed what appear to be Special Forces personnel at my residence in the past, I am now inclined to report my stalker's threats on this blog, even when their likelihood appears low.

If it is true that my FOIA request will soon be fulfilled, as has been suggested, this development may explain the sudden increase in volume and specificity of threats to my family members and myself.

What do I genuinely believe about far right factions of the FBI?

I believe they're not accustomed to being caught.

I believe they have been involved in substantive crimes against the law-abiding American public.

I believe their response to mounting evidence of their malfeasance is not contrition, but redoubled aggression.

In the face of such unprovoked and unwarranted wrongdoing by the far right against the law-abiding American electorate, it is necessary to respond with calm, even in circumstances that manifest substantive threats to my family's safety and my own.

Please understand that I am constantly gauging the strength of response required when confronting a specific set of threats.

Certain posts addressing threats with a low degree of probability but a high degree of harm will appear on my blog temporarily before being removed.

For purposes of documentation, all blog posts are emailed to lanemacwilliams@gmail.com. In the unanticipated event of my disappearance, disability or demise, emails -- even if deleted by a third party -- should be retrievable through a forensic process from my Gmail account.

As you know, I have attempted to ensure that my cell phones, computers, papers and recordings belong to the Office of the Inspector Hotline Investigations Division.

While I myself harbor abiding hopes of being able to articulate my experience in a manner that protects the civil liberties and human rights of the American electorate, it is my desire that, in any eventuality, the materials I have provided to the OIG Hotline Investigations Division should be utilized in defense of our democracy.

I wish to express once again my profound appreciation for the ongoing efforts of your investigators, without which I would not have been able to dedicate myself to this cause.

I am also deeply grateful for the efforts of the Honorable Avril Haines.

And I wish to state with humility how abundantly appreciative I am of our Commander-in-Chief. President Joseph Robinette Biden represents democracy's brightest hope, in my opinion, both domestically and reaching to the farthest corners of the globe.

The American electorate needs to understand the reason why with as much clarity and immediacy as I do.

Democratic freedoms do not inhere within the aspirations of a fraction of our populace. They live within the hopes of men and women everywhere.

It is not too far a reach to say that upon those hopes rests the future for all of us.

It continues to be my privilege to labor on behalf of that future.

And it continues to be my honor to do so in your company.

Most sincerely,

Lane MacWilliam

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The FBI is a deeply divided agency. There are many FBI employees who view their vows to the Constitution with the utmost seriousness and honor, and who strive to defend the fundamentals of our democracy with courage, fortitude and commitment. The fact that some segments of the FBI appear to have embraced a lawless course is not a justification to assail the FBI in general. The safety of FBI agents should be protected, just as the safety of the American citizenry should be protected. As President Joseph R. Biden has so rightly expressed, violence is never justified in any circumstance. The rule of law must always be honored and upheld. It is our shared determination to preserve the civil liberties and human rights of ALL AMERICANS that renders the United States a democracy. We must never abandon this promise. All of our most cherished freedoms depend upon it.