My Third Novel's Conclusion, My Heartbreak

My heart begins to break when I think about completing this particular book -- because this narrative has sustained me like no other story I've known. It's both more personal and more universal than my other works. But beyond memory and archetype, it's a cri-de-coeur about needing to become the person one is destined to be. And in the writing, I have met my own life's work, my own fated journey -- having the sense all the while that the pages are suffused with a resonance, an energy, an electrified field that defies explanation. Writers hope and pray to be overtaken by a work in this way -- to be conscripted into passionate service of a profound story. To experience it even once in a lifetime seems a great privilege. I still have several months before this novel is complete, and this constitutes my reprieve. Because I'm not ready for the beauty to end.




Thursday, January 26, 2023

Restricted Access: For OIG Hotline Investigators Only

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OIG Hotline investigators, yesterday evening, my older son and I had an in-depth conversation about his pituitary illness, in addition to his belief that his vertigo, and that of other family members, is being caused by HAARP.  (As our cats are stumbling and falling, this possibility appears substantive.)

My son expressed that he feels so ill that he believes he may not survive.  Further, he conveyed to me that he doesn't feel strong enough to actively fight his circumstances.

I tried to communicate to him that, while I understand he is suffering, I am not in favor of acquiescence.

I told my son that I believe his illness is treatable, and that it is my hope and expectation that he will be able to reclaim his health with the support of the right medical specialists.

After we spoke, my stalker sent several messages to my cell phone indicating that his FBI cohort planned to falsely allege that my son is suicidal by re-editing our dialogue.  While I don't have the means of assessing my stalker's intent to follow through, I believe it is wise to document his threat herewith.

It's likely not possible to comment on the problem of unjustified surveillance of sensitive family conversations without reflecting on the Constitutional right to privacy.

The founders thought that Americans should have access to free speech, freedom of assembly, private property, and along with these things, the unobstructed right to their sovereignty and independence as law-abiding citizens.

Do I regret my conversation with my son last night, given that it touched on the beauty and fragility of our lives, our willingness to insist on our own sovereignty over ourselves, and the nature of the struggle to convey the truth despite anti-democratic threats from the far right?  

No.

We are called upon to connect with one another with generosity, sensitivity and compassion in the face of suffering -- not as a political mandate, but as a human one.

For far right FBI personnel and affiliates to record private family conversations with the intent to re-edit them for the purposes of disinformation represents an abandonment of our human obligations to one another, separate and apart from our legal ones.

Those on the far right within the FBI, having misused their authority to surveil, harass and harm the law-abiding American public, are deserving of our close examination, certainly.

The secrecy provisions upon which they have relied in the commission of their daily "work" will not conceal their predation toward my ailing son.

And I simply need to observe that most Americans would consider the creation of disinformation about a young man who is likely suffering from a pituitary tumor to be deserving of severe censure.

In order for our democracy to survive the insider threat from far right segments of the FBI, we as Americans need to insist that those who wield badges and the public trust are worthy of that privilege.

That insistence will require thorough fact-finding regarding the FBI's engagement in knowingly falsified law enforcement reporting for anti-democratic objectives.

I have faith that we possess the requisite fortitude to undertake that task.

Most sincerely,




Lane MacWilliams

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